Feeling a little disappointed and disgruntled lately.. i know it's a lesson that I should've learnt a very long time ago, but each time I choose to believe otherwise, to see past what's on the surface and hope for the best even after being burnt time after time… Friendships are the most difficult things to maintain… and no matter how much time and effort you put into it, sometimes it might just never echo back….
I stand firm upon my view that the only individual on earth who has the ability not to let you down is You yourself… while other people will, someday, somehow… whether they mean to or not… inevitably… do something to hurt you…
A very angry post follows… have been ticking like a time bomb for the past idon'tknowhowlong… so people with a weak heart or who are easily offended, please stop here and don't read on… for the brave souls who choose to, if this post prickles you, please accept my sincere apologies, these comments were probably not meant for you… I just felt the need to write all this down and get it off my chest… I could have chosen just to scream and cry it out, but i wanted to write it down to remind myself of what I shouldn't become… so bear with me…
To my friends, if i ever do these things I've listed below, please do me a favour and tell me or direct me back here…
Love,
^C^ with a broken smile for now…
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT IS IT WITH SUPER SHALLOW QUEENS WHO THINK THAT THEIR OWN SO CALLED COMMITMENTS [WHICH SOMETIMES MEAN FUN AND ENJOYMENT] ARE THE ONLY THINGS THAT MATTER IN THIS WORLD AND THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE NO SUCH COMMITMENTS OF THEIR OWN THAT THEY SOMETIMES PUSH AWAY TO ACCOMODATE THE SELFISH NEEDS OF THESE VERY PEOPLE?
WHAT IS IT WITH TURNCOATS WHO DITCH THE VERY FRIENDS WHO HAVE STOOD BY THEM JUST BECAUSE THEY CAN'T PROVIDE THE FUN THAT THEY CRAVE AND WHO HAVE JUST YESTERDAY SWORN TO STICK BY THEM THROUGH THICK AND THIN AND THEN TURN AROUND AND BETRAY THEM?
WHAT IS IT WITH BUGGERS WHO EXPECT YOU TO PREDICT THEIR EVERY WHIM AND FANCY AND ALSO CATER TO THEM TO PROVE THAT YOU ACTUALLY CARE FOR THEM AND THEN HAVE THEM FORGET EVERYTHING THAT YOU'VE DONE FOR THEM AND THE THINGS THAT YOU THREW ASIDE JUST TO BE WITH THEM WHEN THEY NEEDED YOU WHILE THEY HURL ACCUSATIONS AT YOU ABOUT YOU NOT GIVING A DAMN ABOUT THEM AND THEIR SODDING FEELINGS?
WHAT IS IT WITH IDIOTS WHO LIVE IN THEIR OWN ORBIT AND THINKS THAT EVERYONE ELSE BETTER MOVE OVER TO ACCOMODATE THEIR HUGE SELFISH NEEDS AND WILL NEVER EVER BUDGE TO ACCOMODATE ANYONE THEMSELVES?
WHAT IS IT WITH SUPER DISGUSTING LUMPS WHO CAN CLAIM TO BE TOTALLY COMMITTED TO ONE PURPOSE AND ONE TEAM AT A GIVEN PERIOD OF TIME AND THE NEXT MINUTE, DROP THAT VERY THING LIKE A HOT POTATO BECAUSE OF WHAT THEY CLAIM ARE SUPER HUMONGOUS PERSONAL PROBLEMS AND THEN STILL COME BACK AND ASK ABOUT HOW THINGS ARE GOING?
WHAT IS IT WITH MONSTERS WHO AT THE MOMENT YOUR BACK IS TURNED THEY THEMSELVES GO AGAINST THE VERY PRINCIPLES WHICH THEY CLAIM TO STAND BY SO STAUNCHLY AND HAVE TRIED TO PREACH TO OTHERS PREVIOUSLY?
WHAT IS IT WITH ASS-ES WHO CAN'T COMMIT OR BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY LITTLE FIACKING THING OR VOLUNTEER TO DO EVERY DAMN THING BUT DON'T DELIVER AT THE END OF THE DAY?
WHAT IS IT WITH SMART-ALECKS WHO THINK THEY KNOW EVERY DAMN THING IN THE WORLD AND NOT REALISE THEY ARE BEING HUGE $#%^&^ STUPID ASSHOLES?
WHAT IS IT WITH WIMPS WHO COME CRYING TO YOU WITH PROBLEMS BUT NEVER LIFT A FUCKING FINGER TO SORT OUT THEIR OWN LIVES?
WHAT IS IT WITH JERKS WHO TAKE THEIR FRIENDS FOR BLOODY GRANTED ALL THE TIME BECAUSE I AM FUCKING SICK OF THESE FUCKING PEOPLE AND IF THEY CAN'T BLOODY GIVE A DAMN SO THEN NEITHER CAN I. YOU CAN ALL FUCKING SOD OFF AND FALL INTO A GAPING BIG HELL PIT OF MOLTEN LAVA.
JUST FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF BLOODY HYPOCRITES WHO AREN'T WORTH THE WORDS THAT COME OUT OF THEIR FUCKING MOUTHS BECAUSE THEY FUCKING CONTRADICT THEMSELVES!!!!!!!
